suicide
i'm lost. i don't know what to do.
No, I'm not the one contemplating suicide...but i'm shock how the words "i want to commit suicide" or "maybe I should just die" roll of their fingers that easily.
One of my kids told me online, that he's really confused. He can't sleep, he don't know what to do. He even mentioned "Maybe I should just die". Luckily 3 days of orientation camp made him ok.
Another one, just broke up with his girlfriend. He's not taking it well. He says that he can't sleep, and the world seemed crashing down, cause his friends in CCA backstabbed him.
I thought there was some hope, when I talked to him online, and he realised that he's aware that there are still people in his life that care for him. I thought he came to some senses when I related how someone committing suicide could devasted those around him, drawing examples from J2, where someone's friend committed suicde.
Then suddenly, at 11 pm, he came online, drop me this message "someone please kill me" and log off.
i was stunned.
i don't know what to do. I dont' have his handphone number, I don't have anything to contact him, except MSN.
I never felt so lost before, especially with mattes with regards to the kids. Heck, even sexuality education lesson didn't make me feel lost at all. I can't help but keep thinking, is he ok now? In my mind, i'm praying to all the supernatural beings out there, be it only 1 true god, or a few gods, or a few avatar, that he's just saying it and he's ok and alive at home.
I don't know what else to do. One part of me feels that he's fine, one part of me feels that something had happened.
Why. Why do they not cherish the life they have? Dad can be unconcious, may have almost every single organ in his body failing, yet he used every single inch of whatever he has to fight to stay alive, until his friend told him, that it's ok for him to go.
Perhaps they have the health, and took it for granted. I remember the fear I had, when I gather myself up from the kitchen floor, feeling very breathless and a splitting headache, forcing myself out of the house, so that if whatever that had happened to me earlier, would happen outside where people are around to call 995. Up till now, I still do not know what brought me to the floor and blackout for 15 mins. But I never forget how I tried to get out of the house for a higher possiblity of staying alive, if anything happens.
i don't know...i seriously don't know what to do............
No, I'm not the one contemplating suicide...but i'm shock how the words "i want to commit suicide" or "maybe I should just die" roll of their fingers that easily.
One of my kids told me online, that he's really confused. He can't sleep, he don't know what to do. He even mentioned "Maybe I should just die". Luckily 3 days of orientation camp made him ok.
Another one, just broke up with his girlfriend. He's not taking it well. He says that he can't sleep, and the world seemed crashing down, cause his friends in CCA backstabbed him.
I thought there was some hope, when I talked to him online, and he realised that he's aware that there are still people in his life that care for him. I thought he came to some senses when I related how someone committing suicide could devasted those around him, drawing examples from J2, where someone's friend committed suicde.
Then suddenly, at 11 pm, he came online, drop me this message "someone please kill me" and log off.
i was stunned.
i don't know what to do. I dont' have his handphone number, I don't have anything to contact him, except MSN.
I never felt so lost before, especially with mattes with regards to the kids. Heck, even sexuality education lesson didn't make me feel lost at all. I can't help but keep thinking, is he ok now? In my mind, i'm praying to all the supernatural beings out there, be it only 1 true god, or a few gods, or a few avatar, that he's just saying it and he's ok and alive at home.
I don't know what else to do. One part of me feels that he's fine, one part of me feels that something had happened.
Why. Why do they not cherish the life they have? Dad can be unconcious, may have almost every single organ in his body failing, yet he used every single inch of whatever he has to fight to stay alive, until his friend told him, that it's ok for him to go.
Perhaps they have the health, and took it for granted. I remember the fear I had, when I gather myself up from the kitchen floor, feeling very breathless and a splitting headache, forcing myself out of the house, so that if whatever that had happened to me earlier, would happen outside where people are around to call 995. Up till now, I still do not know what brought me to the floor and blackout for 15 mins. But I never forget how I tried to get out of the house for a higher possiblity of staying alive, if anything happens.
i don't know...i seriously don't know what to do............
posted by yanjie at
2:15 AM
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