for the love of the child

as agreed, I went to Wai Por (maternal grandmother) house today after work to get the food she's cooked. Big Bro just had lunch with her. After all, it's been a few years since they get to sit down and have a meal together. And she cooked enough for me to pack back home for mum and 2nd bro.

I was shocked by the spread she's cooked. I think it could easily rival a Chinese New Year Reunion Dinner. It's quite clear that she's spent lots of time, effort and love to whip up these dishes. While she's packing food for me to bring b ack, she gave me a bowl of soup to drink.

Looking at the love she's put in, I've decided not to mention to her that I'm being a vegetarian for these few days, and eat whatever meat there is in the bowl.

Wai Por never mentioned a single word of how much she love us.

But she constantly showed us how much she loved us through her actions and nagging.

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Wanted to reach school before 6.45am to see the kids off for their camp. Unfortunately, 1h 30 mins of alarm didn't chase off the ZZZ monster, and I barely made it to school for assembly, lest seeing them off.

Now I understood how mum felt when I was sent for overseas trips in sec 3. To her, I was (still am) the baby. To me, I'm old enough to take care of myself and excited to see the world out therer. Hence, I would always end up taking her worries as excessive and naggy.

Now I'm the one worrying excessively and being naggy.
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was talking to M and C about my holiday plans for school. They mentioned that perhaps I don't have a family yet, hence don't feel the pinch of spending less time with kids.

I can't help but agree. I've always wondered how they juggled everything - family, children, teaching, studens, admin work, cca, committee work etc.

And I had difficulty telling them, that yes, I feel the pinch, cause they are somehow, my kids.

just like how their children gave them happiness, saddness, hope, dissapointment, love, anger, pride, a sense of wonder, and most importantly, a reason to wake up everyday, those kids have given me these feelings as well, perhaps not as dense as what M and C has gotten from their own children.