distance

why is it so difficult,
for you to tetll me,
what i've done wrong?

why are you keeping your silence?

I felt like I'm talking to a totally different person. It seemes like whatever bond we have doesn't exist at all.

I told you, you can be frank with me. What did I do wrong?

Why this sudden distance?

You are, among all, the brother I loved most since last year. You were the one, with your maturity, who always understood and saw my intentions behind my actions. You were the one who's always so sensible.

You were the one whom we discuss at great lengths anything under the sun. You were the one who will turn to me.

You were the one who keep me motivated and inspired.

You were the one I worried the most last year, but now, the least of my worry. But now, I'm very worried about you. It seems like to me, you are going back your old ways and wasting all your efforts again. I want to talk to you, I want to find out what's wrong, I can't bear to see you regret anymore, like how you regretted not working hard last year and missing out all the opportunities now. Not when the stakes are much higher now.


But why the sudden silence?
why is it so difficult for you to tell me why?
Why are you avoiding me whenever I bring this up?

Why can't you tell me what did I wrong,
so that I can resolve?

It's ok if you don't see me as your brother.
It's ok if you want some distance between the both of us.
It's ok if you want me to shut the !@£$!£% up and leave you alone
Tell me please.
Tell me why.
Don't keep me guessing.
I'm alright with it.

Did you do something wrong, that you're worried it will upset me?
If that's the case, yes it would.
But this distance is upsetting and hurting me a lot more.