swing

i'm ever so lucky. have mentors that are supportive and give me a lot of trust and space. if i had fallen into wrong hands like that friend of mine, who knows i would have been very disillusioned.

to my mentor: if you're reading this, thanks so much for your care. but when it comes to lesson preparation, i'm the kind who prefer to let the pendulum swing.

unlike the original analogy, the pendulum for lesson preparation swings back first. the further you want it to go forward, the more it has to swing back. of course, effort is not proportionate to end result, but you get what i'm getting at lah.

cause it is when it swings forward, that's what keep me going on.

late nights once more. not that i have anything against the monkeys in this pasture. i enjoy teaching them. but i still miss teaching my mon-kids and dis. too many a times, when i wondered "if it is easier for them to understand....", i'm wondering if my mon-kids and dis will understand, not the monkeys in this new pasture.

but what's not mine, isn't mine.
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had a small chit-chat with a teacher in the new pasture. she read my blog, and found that what i've been through is pretty similar to what she had been through when she was on attachment. yeh, a bunch of kids that she's very close to. it's nice to hear what is it like for them now, especially when the kids have graduated and they have not met up for years.

somehow, that gave me some assurance on what things might turn out to be.