reaction

frankly i don't really know how to react at the start.

some did better than expected,

some who gambled by spotting for such a crucial exam had their fingers burnt deservingly. 

some, their hard work paid off better than they wished,

some, i thought they deserve better given the amount of hardwork they've put it.

i've been telling them,

you may not get what you wish for,

but what you get might be better than what you wished for.

i told them the story of "how all the dots connect when you look back"

how it's been the case for gim, alien and my own post-jc life,

when u make the best of what's here and excel in it.

truth to be told,

some of them worked so hard.

read my past post and you'll know

more than a year of red-eyes, consistent hardwork.

yes, some had their hardwork paid off.

but some, secretly, my heart broke.

not out of disappointment - they could only make me more proud.

but rather, that their efforts is not rewarded, and they deserve better.

i know we need examples to prove to some people,

that people do not do well in school not because they are not working hard enough.

i know we need examples to prove to some people,

that academic results is not the measure of a person.

but must it be them,

who despite all the hardwork,

be under-measured or looked down upon

by their family whom they want more love from,

just because of less-than-ideal results?

must it be them, 

to set the examples for us to use?

i don't know how much my words help them feel better

i don't know how much my love helps them.

i'm trying to convince them,

and so am i making myself trust,

that the dots will connect when they look back.

but i will still continue to trust this feeling, 

that i always had from the start,

that they will exceed me in life.

o's is just a step.

once you move to the next step,

nobody cares about your o's anymore.