my di

you've always called me "lao shi",

or "mr ___"

even though i've been calling you my "di"

for the past 2 years.

so when you call me your "kor" in your sms,

for the first time,

how not to be surprised?

i hope i manage to be there for you,

and be a male figure of authority for you.

most importantly, not an absent brother,

and do what you want to do with an elder brother.

you don't deserve growing up with an absent brother,

or an absent male figure that you can turn to.

i know how it feels,

i went through it too.

i see that part of me when i was your age in you.

and i don't want you to go through the same thing.

i hope i have been a good "kor" to you. 

just like how wonderful a "di" you have been to me.