a moment of peace

at 11am today,
while i was cutting through lovers' park to walk back to hall,
a sudden feeling hit me.

a moment of peace.

suddenly everything was so peaceful
suddenly everything felt so peaceful

nevermind jay chou musing was blasting from my ipod
i could hear
peace.

then i realise i still haven't finish my 2500 word essay due at 6pm
sianz.

the answer

i always wondered,
with so much love for them,
why does things still turn out the way it is?

so unclear,
so unsure.

stupid me.
the answer has always been in this song all along.

the answer is so simple.
thanks for this song.
it's helping me to accept,
that my time is up for many of them.


sometimes love just aren't enough

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

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idiotic racist

idiots like this make me wonder if democracy is really suitable for all. Although there is no perfect information, can you at least wake up to how idiotic your stereotypes are?

a clear contradicting message

today another clear message was sent
this time it is what i hoped it had been,
but it totally contradicted with what it was given last week.

so how?

a clear message

it wasn't said.
but i guess given the behaviour and attitude,
the message is pretty clear.

i've asked for a clear message.
i guess it's finally here.
though it's not an outcome i would prefer,
it beats the ambiguity.

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tech porn

incredible:
http://www.appleinsider.com/articles/08/10/16/high_quality_unboxing_photos_late_2008_15_macbook_pro.html

whatever happened to

i used to tell myself not to make this mistake - jumping to conclusions without understanding my kids' point of view. instead of scolding, reasoning would be better.

yet today i did that to the ones dearest to me, my dis.

was a total jerk to them today. i even think that one of them is "sick" to avoid me checking his work today.

i'm sorry my dis. so what if i'm doing it out of worry, out of concern. it doesn't justify or mean that i have to be a jerk like what i was.

i know you all forgive me. but i can't forgive myself.

screw you palin

From CNA website
"Palin told supporters the Democrat was therefore 'not a man who sees America as you and I do, as the greatest force for good in the world.' "

screw you palin. cut out your neo-colonialism thinking.

of all people to ask that question......

didn't expect it when 3 of my dis ask me yesterday "why no girlfriend?"

as i had told so many others,
it is not my priority right now.

if it happens my dis, it happens.
i have made the decision not to look,
but not to down it down if it happens.