me: is she still taking that class?
kak k: no. we've reallocated her so that she has more personal time.
me: ok. so there is no need for me to relief her then.
kak k: you intend to relief her?
me: initially, when she was deployed to teach that class. Cause Kak Z will over-stretch herself to cover her for that class, and I thought probably I should relief her. But since she's not, and Kak Z will be taking all of them, there is nothing for me to worry about anymore.
kak k: ok. but anytime if you want to come back and relief do tell me. Want to have your attachment with us?

me: No thanks.

kak k: Why not?
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L: Intend to come back and relief next year?

me: Highly unlikely.

L: why not?

me: Cause I'm not taking them.

L: But you can take new classes?

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SQ: Coming back next year?

me: Highly unlikely.

SQ: Why not?

me: Not taking them. No Point.

SQ: But you can take new students what.

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I can't. not from there. not when they are still around.

I only want to remember them from that place. I don't have the energy to have any more emotional ties with anyone new from that place anymore.

So that was the last time.  Its a journey to fade away from their minds, without any more U-turns like this year. It's not a journey I would like to thread, and how far I would go on this journey is not determined by me. But it is inevitable.