blogging at a weird hour

I signed off at the wee hours of 31 Dec, wondering what's there to look forward to in 2008.  Just that morning, things started to change.

that morning, Kak Z called, apologising that they forgot to inform me about a farewell treat later that afternoon for the department. I manage to attend it, and it was good to see all the colleagues once more. soon to be leaving boss broke down when she mentioned about leaving. who wants to leave a place where your colleagues are like your friends, and the students you love. unfortunately, there is only so much crap a person can take. 

somehow that gathering gave me things to look forward to. Kak Z finally told me how she needed help in the preparation of certain resources for my kids, and i'll be on my way to do that soon. everyone was talking about the impending wedding of Kak K and how everyone is looking forward to it. somehow, being away doesn't mean being apart - we are still as close as a group, with much things to look forward to to do together.

i also signed off on the 31st, talking about how things between me and my dis are increasingly becoming distant. just the other day, my ex-colleague whom i co-formed in 06 were talking about my kids and dis. she was telling me how it would last for a long time to come. i told her its increasingly a monologue, but she tells me, that something tells her that things are getting stronger and will last for a long time to come.

turns out she's right. somehow, the path down monologues has u-turned back to dialogues on 31 Dec and 1st Jan. yeh, i learn to trust women's intuition more now. 

somehow there are more things to look forward to now. not because i had hall deadlines to clear, but perhaps things seems better.

clearing these hall deadlines gave me the familiar feeling of last semester. working through the wee hours, seeing all the kids log off their msn by 1am, clearing work till 5am to bathe. only this time, i'm heading off to bed, instead of to school to be with them.